Forgiveness

I have always thought it would be nice to write poetry. As much as I try though I cannot seem to produce anything worthwhile, except the poem below. I wrote it in the summer of 2006 when I ran away to Texas to escape everyone I knew including God. It was partially inspired by Psalm 32. It's kind of hard to escape God when you are reading the Bible.

Forgiveness

The words of our fathers reveal your planning,

Alone in the darkness, a light for understanding.

Though I’m often confused as to what it is You say,

And I must admit I don’t always obey,

I know that Your words are perfect and right,

The Songs of the angels as I sing through the night.

I ask for your answer but I’m still such a child.

My mind is in darkness, corrupt and defiled.

I ask for Your wisdom, Your love and protection.

And when it is given, I try to add my own correction.

I ask for forgiveness for all my sins.

Yet, I sit in sorrow, again and again.

I reach for Your kingdom but find myself short.

I’ve broken all the rules, how can I stand in Your courts?

If not for Your grace, then where would I be?

Alone in the darkness, I’d never be free.

Your love is a mystery. I can’t see why You care.

I am but a wretch, a soul you would spare.

I’m a leaf in the wind, wherever it blows.

I’ll never be perfect unless You make me so!